This fall, when I was desperately searching for honest, courageous Catholic leaders responding to the clergy abuse and cover up crisis, I couldn’t seem to find anyone I trusted.
I appreciate your time if you do read my message. As many do not. And I just can’t sit by and be the next victim to give up and even just give into the ideas of dying off like many of us do. That thoughts do come to me at times and i fight back as much as possible. As we had a little hope here in Albany Ny until the recent bankruptcy And now we’re on our own Again and there are no answers at all. Just have to take it again and again. I’m not sure what can be done but I believe some one has to set enough and do something for the sake of being abused all over
I would like to begin to talk about the unbelievable act of the dioceses being Able to file bankruptcy after all we know now about clergy abuse and how much we the victims have to go through for many years before we can tell our stories and we’re convinced that by doing so will relief us of the pain and move on with our lives. It’s truly unreal that we continue to be revictimized over and over when will it stop and who can change it. now this as like the rest of the diocese that file and move on becomes old news rather quickly because there is so much going on around the issues that people can’t keep up with the latest news stories and it’s impossible to keep up with the last bit of news Most just move on It’s already happened in Albany i don’t hear hardly anything more about the bankruptcy and it’s only been a few weeks. I don’t know what I can do or say now it’s just a horrible thing that keep gettin away with this. And it sure looks as though not much will be said if anything it will be a small opinion and the bottom line is we are still going to suffer in silence and be forgotten again. But I sure would like to do something. The fact that not many ever responded to me messages it sure makes anyone want to give up. But the only thing i had to hope for was getting a few bucks to live on for a bit and that’s not ever going to happen now if it does years down the road I may not even live to see it. But I still have some fight in me if there’s any possible ways to get the attention Of some kind of platform to get the attention of anyone who may help I sure am up to a battle now I’m petty pissed off and have nothing to lose as I will be homeless now shortly and not much hope left on that. Idk I’m rambling just so tired of seeing this happen all over and no consequences for the diocese. Needs to stop in Albany ny
This is a sad story about
being an adult survivor of clergy abuse. The fact is that it took me 40 years to tell my story of my abuse. And I had to completely self destruct myself and my life and be it was hard to face but I was at deaths door before I would be able to face up to the horrific day that changed my life in so many ways. The last time I decided to try to end my life in oct 2020 I left a message to my beautiful daughter that I was going to leave now and I couldn’t take the Pain anymore and don’t remember Doing that as I took a lot of pills and alcohol. The next day when she did everything to find me and try to help me. I was devastated as I hurt the one person in my life I swore to protect and I turned out to be the one who hurt her. The next day I finally told my story and of course I would not be alive to even write this message. I was told I would get the help I need by coming forward. As I went through all the process that was suggested and stood up and told everything I could and of course I destroyed my finances and my body so I have been homeless and hungry and it’s been pretty hard but i Had One last thing left to actually have a chance at some kind of life as I was told that by filing a civil suit will help me to start to forgive and also have one more chance. As you may know the diocese of Albany Just filled bankruptcy and now we may not ever get any justice at all and I’m going to be homeless again very soon as my landlord has done everything In his power to verbally abuse me for months and the only reason I’m still here is the
ERAP site in ny my application has been pending since September 2022. So he can’t throw me out until it’s resolved. Now there is not one single place to get financial help for a 58 year old guy to get Any help as my doctors have said I’m disabled but the ssi has turned me down 2 times and I can’t aply again for some reason. So I’m
One of hundreds of victims and I truly have no ideas what will happen next. But that bankruptcy was all i Had to hold onto. Does the diocese even care that now many of us may not see a chance at justice at all. Who may have an answer and how long do we need to suffer and die off before maybe the state starts to help us just keep a place to live without the fear of the landlord knocking on our doors telling us to get out and go live on the streets again we just need a little help. Please. Thank you if you do read this message as most of my messages are not ever answered by most and when they do they all tell me the same that we have no resources and do not help individuals. We need some help.
Thank you for the comment Robert. I am so sorry for the abuse you sufferered, and for all you are going through today. We have corresponded by email a few times before when you've reached out, and I'm sorry that your situation is still so difficult. I wish there was more I could do, but I hope you will continue fighting for the help you need.
I think connecting with a local social services agency might be your best avenue to get assistance. Have you tried calling the local Social Services department? It looks like their phone number is listed on their website here: https://www.schenectadycounty.com/dss/financial. Or the Schenectady Community Action Program might be good to try: https://www.scapny.org. I think you could also try calling 211 to see what resources they could connect you with: https://www.cityofschenectady.com/276/United-Way-211. If you are working with a lawyer, perhaps they could also advice you on what help might be available.
I appreciate your time if you do read my message. As many do not. And I just can’t sit by and be the next victim to give up and even just give into the ideas of dying off like many of us do. That thoughts do come to me at times and i fight back as much as possible. As we had a little hope here in Albany Ny until the recent bankruptcy And now we’re on our own Again and there are no answers at all. Just have to take it again and again. I’m not sure what can be done but I believe some one has to set enough and do something for the sake of being abused all over
I would like to begin to talk about the unbelievable act of the dioceses being Able to file bankruptcy after all we know now about clergy abuse and how much we the victims have to go through for many years before we can tell our stories and we’re convinced that by doing so will relief us of the pain and move on with our lives. It’s truly unreal that we continue to be revictimized over and over when will it stop and who can change it. now this as like the rest of the diocese that file and move on becomes old news rather quickly because there is so much going on around the issues that people can’t keep up with the latest news stories and it’s impossible to keep up with the last bit of news Most just move on It’s already happened in Albany i don’t hear hardly anything more about the bankruptcy and it’s only been a few weeks. I don’t know what I can do or say now it’s just a horrible thing that keep gettin away with this. And it sure looks as though not much will be said if anything it will be a small opinion and the bottom line is we are still going to suffer in silence and be forgotten again. But I sure would like to do something. The fact that not many ever responded to me messages it sure makes anyone want to give up. But the only thing i had to hope for was getting a few bucks to live on for a bit and that’s not ever going to happen now if it does years down the road I may not even live to see it. But I still have some fight in me if there’s any possible ways to get the attention Of some kind of platform to get the attention of anyone who may help I sure am up to a battle now I’m petty pissed off and have nothing to lose as I will be homeless now shortly and not much hope left on that. Idk I’m rambling just so tired of seeing this happen all over and no consequences for the diocese. Needs to stop in Albany ny
This is a sad story about
being an adult survivor of clergy abuse. The fact is that it took me 40 years to tell my story of my abuse. And I had to completely self destruct myself and my life and be it was hard to face but I was at deaths door before I would be able to face up to the horrific day that changed my life in so many ways. The last time I decided to try to end my life in oct 2020 I left a message to my beautiful daughter that I was going to leave now and I couldn’t take the Pain anymore and don’t remember Doing that as I took a lot of pills and alcohol. The next day when she did everything to find me and try to help me. I was devastated as I hurt the one person in my life I swore to protect and I turned out to be the one who hurt her. The next day I finally told my story and of course I would not be alive to even write this message. I was told I would get the help I need by coming forward. As I went through all the process that was suggested and stood up and told everything I could and of course I destroyed my finances and my body so I have been homeless and hungry and it’s been pretty hard but i Had One last thing left to actually have a chance at some kind of life as I was told that by filing a civil suit will help me to start to forgive and also have one more chance. As you may know the diocese of Albany Just filled bankruptcy and now we may not ever get any justice at all and I’m going to be homeless again very soon as my landlord has done everything In his power to verbally abuse me for months and the only reason I’m still here is the
ERAP site in ny my application has been pending since September 2022. So he can’t throw me out until it’s resolved. Now there is not one single place to get financial help for a 58 year old guy to get Any help as my doctors have said I’m disabled but the ssi has turned me down 2 times and I can’t aply again for some reason. So I’m
One of hundreds of victims and I truly have no ideas what will happen next. But that bankruptcy was all i Had to hold onto. Does the diocese even care that now many of us may not see a chance at justice at all. Who may have an answer and how long do we need to suffer and die off before maybe the state starts to help us just keep a place to live without the fear of the landlord knocking on our doors telling us to get out and go live on the streets again we just need a little help. Please. Thank you if you do read this message as most of my messages are not ever answered by most and when they do they all tell me the same that we have no resources and do not help individuals. We need some help.
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Thank you for the comment Robert. I am so sorry for the abuse you sufferered, and for all you are going through today. We have corresponded by email a few times before when you've reached out, and I'm sorry that your situation is still so difficult. I wish there was more I could do, but I hope you will continue fighting for the help you need.
I think connecting with a local social services agency might be your best avenue to get assistance. Have you tried calling the local Social Services department? It looks like their phone number is listed on their website here: https://www.schenectadycounty.com/dss/financial. Or the Schenectady Community Action Program might be good to try: https://www.scapny.org. I think you could also try calling 211 to see what resources they could connect you with: https://www.cityofschenectady.com/276/United-Way-211. If you are working with a lawyer, perhaps they could also advice you on what help might be available.